Defeated

Defeated

Hi Hi Hullo.

So!!!!!!! Tomorrow (Monday), Terengganu is having another holiday for Nuzul Al-Quran! :) Yeayyyyyy!! Tp ada test hari Jumaat lepas... DAMMIT! DID THEY PURPOSELY PLAN THE HOLIDAY SO THAT WE CAN'T GO HOME?!?!

Anyway, about my Hydrocarbon test. Hydrocarbon is the continuation of Organic Chemistry. It's the Chemistry part where you study Alkane, Alkene, Alcohol, Carboxylic Acid (remembuh Spm? No? .. Okay.) And now we have Alkyne, Ketone, Aldehyde, Beneze, Ester. K, sorry for boring you.

So I love it, I mean, whoever is in love in Chemistry would surely love these lah kan. It's pure Chemistry. Tp.. belajar seronok, nak hafal mechanism sakit. So I guess I got a little confident for the test and ended up being ashamed. hahaha Hafal bnyk sgt mechanism Benzene tp yg keluar banyak Alkyne how? Naming pun satu pun tarak. Haiyamapelai.

Spot me!! ..... You can't? :(

Two weeks until my raya holiday kicks in. A few days ago, I had a slight mental breakdown. Something ticked me off completely and after a few hours later I cried just a little bit (Dr. Sonia). It was merely crying but the tears were there hahaha. I guess after something happened, I got really stressed off and that totally pushed me off the edge. And I realized ... I'm homesick.

NUUUUU, this cannot be happening. Admitting you're homesick is already weakening. To experience it (!!) is just... 

I had to spend my first day puasa here at Dungun and my friends who are lucky enough to go home and fast with their family are all like "Kesian nya kau Afiqahh, jgn sedih k" No, no. I'm not sad. Really. What is the difference of fasting with your family at the end of Ramadhan or the middle of Ramadhan or the 20th day of Ramadhan? I don't see the difference. So I have no trouble having to spend time with my family only the last few days of Ramadhan.

I'm stressed here, sure. But it's only study-stress kinda things. It's the kind of stress I like to be in. But experiencing a different kind of stress at home is no fun. So, I'm glad to stay here for as long as I want (until I'm homesick). And now, the feeling is here, homesick.

Sick, sick, sick and sick as ever. And what's worse is, I'm already in holiday gear. I can't seem to shake it off. I have at least one more week ++ of class and to study and I'm already in holiday mood?!?! I can't face my books anymore, I can't leave my bed (yesterday, I slept at 11.30pm!!!!!!!!), I don't have anything to do past 10pm and God, I just wanna go homeee.

Please come fast 15th August!!!

Eh geram betul aku dgn Faeez ni